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[06 Aug 2009|07:22pm]
Three things.
1. Honesty.
2. Don't play games.
3. Open communication.

I know what I want.

I'll elaborate more later.
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maybe i'm just a hopeless romantic [28 Jun 2009|08:46pm]
Maybe it's just that I keep watching shows that make me want that dream guy. Maybe I secretly keep hoping that someone will sweep me off my feet. Maybe I love seeing other people happy and in love. Maybe it's just that I fall too easily. Maybe it's just that I pick up on simple things people do. Maybe it's just that these simple things make me happy. Maybe that's all I need.

Maybe I'm just a hopeless romantic.

I go through these scenarios in my head, probably like every other girl I know. I don't get very far though. Some girls imagine their weddings from the style of their dress to the decorations on their wedding cake. I mean, I guess I have thought about my wedding, but I don't get to the details because I really don't know how it is going to be. I haven't even had a good, healthy relationship with someone. I've been treated like shit when I should be treated like a lady. So what I imagine is a good relationship with someone that actually cares about me. A hopeless romantic doesn't always have to imagine the rest of their life, they can imagine bits and pieces. I imagine I am with someone that doesn't judge me or think that pasts are a big deal. I imagine that I am with someone who will compromise and talk things through. I imagine I am with someone who loves me for me.

I'm always hearing from my friends, "He's not right for you", "You shouldn't be with a guy who treats you like that", or "I know you can do better", but what else have I known? I jump into these relationships without knowing exactly how the guy is going to be like. But then again, no one would have thought that these guys would have been the type to actually treat a girl badly. When I told my friends about the things these guys would say or expect me to do, they would be astounded. They couldn't believe that these so-called amazing guys would do such things. Then the bad comments would start to come. And before knowing he was this "bad guy" they would think he was perfect for me. I've been hurt too many times to take it anymore. I will not let another guy hurt me.

But here comes the next part. There is this guy. I don't know him very well, but when we talk I feel like I've known him forever. It's probably just my heart talking, but he seems really great. Unfortunately, I only met him a little more than two weeks ago and he lives up north...while I moved back down south, 3.5 hours away. It gets worse, he is talking to someone he really likes. I just keep asking myself why would I meet this guy right before I leave without having a purpose? I feel like we have a lot in common and I've had fun with him the two times we hung out, but what's the purpose? Are we supposed to meet up again in the future or was it only a little hint at happiness that God wanted to throw at me to make me stumble? Fall on my face I will, but not at the exception of losing someone who I want to get to know better. Can the possibility still be there? I'm visiting in a few weeks, but I don't know what will come of it. I'm not going up there specifically to visit him, but seeing him again would be nice. Talking to him makes me smile and that's all I can ask for. You only live once, better make it worthwhile. I don't want this chance to slip away.

Degrassi: The Next Generation has filled my nights this past week. As much drama that goes on on that show, they always somehow throw in the love story. The girl or guy that got away, the girl that can't catch a break, but finally finds the one. I want to find the one. I'm still young and living life, so it isn't like it has to happen now. Just someday soon. I don't want to miss any chances.

Maybe in the future I'll imagine my exact wedding, alongside the man I am going to marry. But until then, I'll be a hopeless romantic, watching couples in love and waiting for "that guy" to come along, whether it be someone who I have already met or someone new.
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[26 May 2008|02:07am]
Sometimes I just don't know what to do.
Sometimes it hurts more to stay in a relationship than to say goodbye.
I thought we would be good for eachother, but we both know it only hurt us more.
I don't understand why things happen and then why things end.

I just need some guidance. What do I do from here on out?
Do we try and work it out or end it since we've been trying for so long?
I don't want to say goodbye, but I can't keep stressing thinking things will get better...when they haven't yet.
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[05 Apr 2008|03:22pm]
Maybe I miss you.
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[03 Apr 2008|11:47pm]
If it was possible to go back one year to April 3, 2007, would I do it?




Maybe. :-/




Gosh, too many memories. I wish more of them could have been made.
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[11 Jan 2008|12:04am]
Wow...it has been almost four months since I posted an entry. Amazing how a broken heart can change a person in so many ways. I guess I put my feelings elsewhere and not into writing, at least not into writing in this journal. I wrote more in a journal with a pen...defintely helped too.

First of all, I look at the entry before the last one. Some things I wrote about I thought I could never get over. I guess that is what time does. People always say that broken hearts heal with time and I'm not gonna say my heart is healed, but it is at least bandaged up. I won't be over him, it is just a fact of life. The first real relationship I had and the first guy I really fell for probably won't ever leave my mind. Deep down I still hope there is a chance, but I can't sit on dwell on that part of my life anymore. It's the past and I've had to move on. Unfortunately I had to move on while he was still apart of my life, which made it harder, but I believe it also made me stronger.

Second of all, I've changed. I am not the same person I was when I was in the relationship. I am not the same person I was right after we broke up. I am not the same person as I was even during break a few weeks ago. I am changing and growing more each day. Every experience brings new consequences, good and bad.
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[25 Sep 2007|12:45am]
[ mood | blank ]

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the last stand...or is it really? [18 Sep 2007|10:31pm]
[ mood | numb ]

It wouldn't have mattered if the relationship was my fifth, tenth, twentieth, or first. You gain experience through life situations. Some people find that special person in their first relationship and others find that person after many relationships. It really doesn't matter when, how, why, just as long as that special person is found.

What is love? You can be yourself in front of the person you love. You can make a fool of yourself, have the best times, have the worst times, cry, laugh, smile, sulk, hug, kiss, fight, make up, and everything will be all right because of that bond of love. You hang out together and have fun times and you enjoy eachothers company. You can make fun of eachother and get eachother mad, and then afterwards fall into eachothers arms.

Was I in love? Yeah, I think so. Was he in love with me? No, but I didn't expect him or ask him to be. Love doesn't just happen, I believe more in lust at first sight. You don't fall in love either, you grow in love. You may be in a great relationship or a rocky relationship and down the line both of those relationship may end up with both people being in love with eachother. Even when the relationship started out like it wasn't going to end up that way. Even when one person got rid of all his emotions and said he didn't know if he could let me in. It could eventually happen, he could eventually fall in love with me; it doesn't have to happen over night, nor did I want it to happen over night. I wanted it to be a possibility...something to look forward to, something to grow into.

Am I still in love? Maybe. I can't think of anyone else I would want to be with other than him. Maybe I am limiting myself, but I don't want anyone else. I only want to be with him; he makes me incredibly happy and for once in my life I was having fun, I was letting someone into my life and getting to know him also. I smiled all the time. Now that is all changed. I see him all the time and it isn't the same. I can't even write this without crying. I see him and can't help but think that I want to hold him in my arms and kiss him.

He is everything. He asked me the other night why I liked him, there never is a perfect response to this question because why does anyone like someone? Sometimes it is undescribable. Sometimes all the words in the world could describe it. I wrote why I liked him down on a piece of paper way back in May. It has been 4 months and so many more things need to be added. And I could say everything I like about him, but it will only really matter to him. I will tell him in person.

I don't want to be with anyone else...because he is the only one I want to hold hands with when walking down the street. Because he is the only person that I want to wrap my arms around and hold on to. Because I want him to be the last person to wish me good night and the first person to wish me good morning. Because I want to be the only girl he sees, everyone else is blocked out. Because I want him to be the only guy I see. Because I want to make him happy. Because I want him to know I care for him probably more than most people. Because I want him to excel as a student and a runner. Because I know that he is amazing. Because he is gorgeous. Because I want him to be the last person I think about at night and I want to be the last person he thinks about. Because he deserves everything in the world and I want to give it to him. Because I want to be the one. Because I want him to realize that I can be the one. Because I want him to open his heart to me and let me in knowing that we both are vulnerable. Because I want him to call me up in the middle of the night when he needs to talk, for any reason or no reason at all. Because I want to take random trips at random times for no reason but to be together. Because I want to drive out to the middle of nowhere and lay on my car roof and gaze at that stars. And most of all, because I love him, and he doesn't even know how much.

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[06 Sep 2007|10:07pm]
[ mood | lonely ]

And when you realize that you want to be with me...













...it'll already be too late.


Don't let it be too late. :-/

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[25 Aug 2007|12:43pm]
1. When you want to have "you" time, what do you do?
hang out in my room, walk or run somewhere.

2. Are you comfortable with answering personal questions?
fairly comfortable.

3. Have you ever cried and didn't know why?
no.

4. When is the last time you were truly happy with your life?
a couple weeks ago.

5. Have you ever found someone of your same sex sexy?
jessica alba is hot.

6. Do you think long distance relationships are ever really worth it?
they can be.

7. What did you do at your lowest point in life?
looked ahead.

8. What brought you back from that?
running.

9. Have you ever envisioned your own wedding?
not really actually.

10. When is the last time you personally made someone else cry?
never.

11. The last time you were kissed, where were you?
doesn't matter.

12. Do you eat a healthy diet?
it is healthy enough.

13. What part of your looks are you the most complimented on?
smile and eyes, I guess. I haven't really been complimented in a while.

14. Do you believe exes can really ever be "just friends?"
I'm not really sure. It seems like I liked him too much to not have feelings for him if we were still friends. And he really hurt me.

15. Would you attend each of your ex's funerals?
Who knows.

16. In fact, how many exes do you have?
sadly now two.

17. Would you be able to date someone who had a kid with someone else?
possibly.

18. When is the last time you were on a vacation?
a long time ago.

19. Do you make your bed every day?
no.

20.Are you too shy to tell people when you're developing feelings for them?
depends.

21. Do you use the Internet or television more?
internet.

22. Have you ever worn black nail polish?
yes.

23. Which celebrity have you been compared to most?
I dunno.

24. Do you have romantic feelings for anyone, and if so, do they know?
always will.

25. What are your plans for your future?
masters degree in psychology once I get my BA in criminal justice and minor in psychology.

26. Do you want to be in a relationship right now?
I want to be in the same relationship I was in.

27. If you could pack up and leave your life now to move away, would you?
no.

28. Have you ever done any acting on stage?
yes.

29. Do you like being in pictures?
yes.

30. Have you ever been more attracted to a significant other's sibling than them?
no.

31. What is the last fun, free activity you did?
watched a movie last night at my place.

32. Do you enjoy romance?
yes.

33. Do you tend to fall for people easily?
no.

34. Have you spent more time in your life single, or in a relationship?
single.

35. What person in your family are you the most like?
idk.

36. Are you quick to start a fight?
no.

37. Have you ever put anything other than cheese in your grilled cheese?
yes.

38. What are you studying in school?
criminal justice and psychology.

39. Do your parents really know YOU?
no.

40. Have you ever felt invinsible?
yes.

41. How many cars have you owned?
none.

42. Do you get along well with your siblings?
usually.

43. Would you rather be cheated on with someone who your ex had broken?
I don't understand the question, but I cheating is unexcusable.

44. Do you feel like you've got some growing up to do?
I'm growing everyday.

45. Do you like to dress up?
sometimes.


100.WHATS YOUR PROFILE SONG AND WHY?
on myspace it is hide and seek by imogen heap. the song is self explainatory, just listen to the lyrics.

99.DO YOU HAVE A JOB?
I need one.

98. MIDDLE NAME?
marie.

97. DO YOU HAVE A CRUSH ON SOMEONE?
I don't do crushes.

96. LIED IN THE LAST 24 HOURS?
yes.

95. BEST BREAK UP SONG?
no clue. not breaking up would be the best thing...

94. WHERE WAS THE LAST PLACE YOU TOOK A PLANE TO?
las vegas 6 years ago..

93. WHAT IS THE LAST MOVIE YOU WATCHED?
vacancy.

92. WHAT MAKES YOU MAD?
boys that are afraid of commitment and good girls who care for them and treat them right.

91. WHAT WOULD YOU LIKE TO BE WHEN YOU GROW UP?
happy.

90. WHAT'S YOUR NAME?
danielle.

88. DO YOU HAVE A FRIEND OF THE OPPOSITE SEX YOU CAN TALK TO?
yes.

87. DO YOU HAVE ANY SIBLINGS?
yes.

86. WHERE ARE YOU NOW?
my room.

84. WHAT DOES THE 7TH MESSAGE IN YOUR INBOX SAY ON YOUR CELL?
eh, I don't feel like looking.

82. WHAT IS SITTING TO YOUR LEFT RIGHT NOW?
my printer.

81.WHERE IS YOUR MOM RIGHT NOW?
home.

80. DO YOU HAVE ANY KIDS?
nope.

79. WHO IS THE 5TH PERSON YOU GOT A MISSED CALL FROM ON YOUR PHONE?
mark.

78. CLOSEST BLACK OBJECT?
stapler.

76. WHAT SONG ARE YOU LISTENING TO?
hide and seek by imogen heap.

75. DO YOU SING IN THE SHOWER?
sometimes, although not lately.

74. DO YOU OWN ANY PETS?
my family owns a dog, not me personally.

72. LAST TIME YOU LISTENED TO COUNTRY MUSIC?
today in erin's car since she likes country. :-/ yuck.

69. WHAT ARE YOUR FEARS?
flying. being alone.

68. WHAT CAN YOU HEAR NOW?
the television in the front room.

67. HOW MANY DRUGS ARE IN YOUR SYSTEM NOW?
one.

64. LAST PERSON TO COMMENT YOU?
dave.

63. DO YOU SING?
yes.

62. SCREAMO OR COUNTRY?
neither.

61. ROCK OR RAP?
rock.

60. DO YOU LIKE CHEESE?
yes.

59. WHO DID YOU LAST CALL?
my mom.

58. WHO LAST CALLED YOU?
mark.

57. WHAT JEWELERY DO YOU WEAR DAILY?
my livestrong and no compromise bracelets.

56. WHAT ARE YOU DOING NOW?
filling this out.

55. WHO WAS THE LAST PERSON YOU HUGGED?
catherine.

54. WOULD YOU DIE FOR SOMEONE?
yes.

53. LATEST THING YOU'VE LEARNED?
that a certain boy is afraid and a fool because he let me go. and he knows I'm right as much as he'll try to deny it.

52. ARE YOU COLD NOW?
no.

51. WHAT DO YOU SMELL?
my room.

50. IS ANYTHING BOTHERING YOU RIGHT NOW?
yeah.

49. WHO IS THE LAST PERSON YOU KISSED?
mark. and I would kiss him again in a heartbeat.

48. WHAT ARE YOU DOING TOMORROW?
going to camp.

44. BED SHEET COLOR?
white, dark blue, red.

43. DO YOU LOVE SOMEONE NOW?
yes. yes I do.

42. CAN YOU SWIM?
yes.

41. DO YOU WANT TO BE WITH SOMEONE?
yes.

35. UNITED STATES OR CANADA?
united states.

34. WHAT TIME IS IT?
1:13pm.

33. WHAT WOULD YOU DO IF YOU FOUND OUT YOU WERE ADOPTED?
look for my birthparents.

32. JEANS OR SWEATPANTS?
jeans.

31.WHAT SHOULD YOU BE DOING?
I'm tired so maybe I should rest.

30. ARE YOU GONNA DO IT?
probably.

29. DO YOU HAVE SOCKS ON?
just took them off.

28. DO YOU OWN BIG SUNGLASSES?
yes.

27. HAVE YOU CRIED SO HARD YOU MADE YOURSELF SICK?
that pretty much sums up the last four days.

26. DO YOU LIKE TECHNO?
not really.

18. DO YOU LIKE 80'S MOVIES?
yeah.

17.DO YOU LIKE -POUR SOME SUGAR ON ME- BY -DEF LEPPARD?
sure.

16. DO YOU DANCE?
yes.

15. WHAT KINDA MUSIC DO YOU LIKE?
pop, rock, alternative, oldies.

12. BEEN TO LONDON?
no, but I want to.

11.CAN YOU LICK YOUR NOSE?
I can barely touch it.

9. BEEN TO COLLEGE?
I am in college.

7. FAVORITE TIME OF DAY?
night time.

6. EVER LICKED SOMEONES CHEEK?
yes.

5. SEEN ALL THE SPIDERMAN MOVIES?
yes.

4. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE SEASON?
spring.

3. WHAT ARE YOU LOOKING FORWARD TO?
the cross country season.

2. EVER GOTTEN LOST IN THE DARK?
yes.

1. WHERE IS YOUR NUMBER 1 at?
who knows, I wish he was with me still...


S T A R T.
1. Name: danielle
2. Middle Name: marie
3. State: california
4. Place of Birth: newport beach
5. Sex: female
7. Bus[es]:
8. School: csu stanislaus
9. Occupation: student athlete
10. Initials: dmd
11. Screen name: dmdchic

A P P E A R A N C E.
12. Hair Color: dirty blonde/light brown.
13. Hair Length: a little longer than shoulder length.
14. Eye color: hazel.
15. Best Feature: eyes and smile.
16. Height: 5'7"
17. Braces: not anymore.
18. Glasses: no.
19. Shoe size: 8.5-9
20. Diploma: yes.

F I R S T.
22. First best friend: katlyn.
23. First Award: dance award when I was like 4.
24. First Sport You Joined: dance and soccer.
25. First thing you did today: showered.
26. First Real vacation: puerto vallarta.
27. First thing you said today: I don't remember.
28. First Love: :(

F A V O R I T E S.
29. Movies: remember the titans, boondock saints, the notebook.
30. TV Show: degrassi, shark.
31. Color: blue.
32. Rapper: I don't have a favorite.
33. Place to get groceries: safeway. foodmaxx.
34. Food: mexican and italian food.
35. Season: spring.
36. Candy: snickers. reese's.
37. Sport: cross country. track and field.
38. Restaurant: olive garden.
40. Store: any place cool.
41. School Subject: math and science.
42. Animal: dog.
43. Book: invisible monsters. harry potter.
44. Magazine: cosmopolitan.

W H A T W E R E // A R E Y O U.
45. Doing before you started this survey: with the cross country team eating food.
46. Feeling: sick to my stomach still.
47. Wearing: running clothes.
48. Crying about: stuff.
49. Eating: nothing.
50. Drinking: nothing.
51. Typing: this.
53. Listening To: nothing.
54. Thinking about: him.
55. Wanting: him.
56. Watching: nothing.

F U T U R E.
57. Kids: someday.
59. Want to be Married: eventually.
60. Career in Mind: detective.

OPPOSITE SEX.
63. Hair color: darker.
65. Eye color: no preference.
66. Measurements: my height or taller than me.
68. Lips or Eyes: eyes
69. Hugs or Kisses: hugs along with kisses.
70. Short or Tall: tall
71. Easygoing or serious: easygoing
72. Romantic or Spontaneous: romantically spontaneous
73. Good or Bad: good and bad.
74. Sensitive or spontaneous?: spontaneous.
75. Hook-up or Relationship: relationship.
77. Trouble Maker or Hesitant One: trouble maker.


H A V E Y O U E V E R.
79. Had major surgery: yes, if you count wisdom teeth.
80. Gone commando: yes.
81. Ran Away From Home: no.
82. Broken a bone: no.
83. Got an X-ray: yes.
84. Been on a cruise: no.
85. Broken Someone's Heart: no.
86. Dumped someone: no.
87. Cried When Someone Died: yes.
88. Cried At School: yes.

D O Y O U B E L I E V E I N.
89. God: yes.
90. Miracles: yes.
91. Love at First Sight: no.
92. Ghosts: no.
93. Aliens: no.
94. Soul Mates: yes.
95. Heaven: yes
96. Hell: yes.
97. Answered prayers: mine haven't been answered.
98. Kissing on The First Date: sure.
99. Horoscopes: not really.
100. Is there someone you wish you had? yes because he was right for me.
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[23 Aug 2007|04:02pm]
[ mood | crappy ]

Take your own advice.
You are the fool.
Always wanting what is not.
Never wanting what he has got.

You won't understand.
And you will still be afraid.
I keep putting my heart on the line.
And keep getting hurt in the end.
Just keep thinking that you are fine.
I'll never know when my heart will mend.
Give yourself away to everyone in sight.
But in the end, you'll know that I was right.
I love you very much and will never let you go.
You have my heart and that is all that I know.
I will be strong, I always am.
Just know that you will be wrong in the end.
You need to figure yourself out.
You can't even communicate with me.
You couldn't even break up with me to my face.
Caring for you was all I was doing.
If you can't handle that, then you don't deserve anyone.
Seeing you will hurt me so much.
I don't know how you think we will still be able to hang out.
You think I'm cool, but not as your girlfriend.
I think you just don't want to try at this relationship.
You think that the easy way out is to just let it go.
But the best way would be to work on it and figure things out.
Because I know deep down you actually do care for me.
You actually like me and you actually want to be with me.
You can't supress those feelings forever.

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[04 Aug 2007|12:03am]
It's hard to wait around for something that I know might not even happen, but it's even harder to give up on it when it's everything I ever wanted...
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[03 Aug 2007|11:57pm]
Because you don't want to let me in.
Because you know that I actually care for you.
Because you know that I won't hurt you.

Because you know that I am good for you.
Because you know that this could work.
Because you are afraid of feeling.

Because you are afraid of feeling love.
Because you are afraid of me loving you.
Pick one. Or more.
Just give us a chance.
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[02 Aug 2007|12:59pm]
[ mood | confused ]

Why are you so afraid to care?


















I miss you... :-X

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[27 Jul 2007|05:30pm]
[ mood | optimistic ]

I randomly came upon this song and the words just catch me. They are almost as perfect as the Avril Lavigne song I posted last.
The song is pretty much saying that one person in a relationship keeps getting/taking the blame for things when it isn't necessarily their fault the whole time. They are using their hearts and getting hurt, but they don't mind being hurt since they care so much for the other person. I know I won't stop using my heart though because I'd rather hurt than never feel love. I dunno why, but I think I've fallen in love... :-/ And all I can do now is be optimistic.


No sir
Well I don't wanna be the blame, not anymore
It's your turn to take a seat
We're settling the final score

And why do we like to hurt so much?

I can't decide
You have made it harder just to go on
And why, all the possibilities
Well I was wrong

That's what you get when you let your heart win, woah
That's what you get when you let your heart win, woah
I drowned out all my sense with the sound of its beating
And that's what you get when you let your heart win, woah

I wonder
How am I supposed to feel when you're not here?
Cuz I've burned every bridge I ever built
When you were here

I still try

Holding on to silly things, I never learn
Oh why, all the possibilities
I'm sure you've heard

That's what you get when you let your heart win, woah
That's what you get when you let your heart win, woah
I drowned out all my sense with the sound of its beating (beating)
And that's what you get when you let your heart win, woah

Hey, make your way to me, to me
And I'll always be just so inviting (so inviting)
If I ever start to think straight
This heart will start a riot in me
Let's start, start - hey!

Why do we like to hurt so much?
Oh, why do we like to hurt so much?
That's what you get when you let your heart win, woah

That's what you get when you let your heart win, woah
That's what you get when you let your heart win, woah
Now I can't trust myself with anything but this
And that's what you get when you let your heart win, woah

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[26 Jul 2007|09:36pm]
[ mood | gloomy ]

This song is pretty damn close.


I looked away
then I look back at you,
You try to say
the things that you can't undo,
If I had my way
I'd never get over you,
Today's the day
I pray that we make it through.

Make it through the fall,
Make it through it all.

And I don't wanna fall to pieces
I just wanna sit and stare at you.
I don't wanna talk about it
And I don't want a conversation
I just wanna cry in front of you.
I don't wanna talk about it
'Cause I'm in love with you.

You're the only one
I'd be with till the end.
When I come undone
you bring me back again.
Back under the stars,
Back into your arms.

And I don't wanna fall to pieces
I just wanna sit and stare at you.
I don't wanna talk about it
And I don't want a conversation
I just wanna cry in front of you.
I don't wanna talk about it
'Cause I'm in love with you.

Wanna know who you are,
Wanna know where to start,
I wanna know what this means.

Wanna know how you feel,
Wanna know what is real.
I wanna know everything... Everything.

I don't wanna fall to pieces
I just wanna sit and stare at you.
I don't wanna talk about it
And I don't want a conversation
I just wanna cry in front of you.
I don't wanna talk about it.

And I don't wanna fall to pieces
I just wanna sit and stare at you.
I don't wanna talk about it
And I don't want a conversation
I just wanna cry in front of you.
and I don't wanna talk about it
'Cause I'm in love with you.
I'm in love with you,
'Cause I'm in love with you.
I'm in love with you,
I'm in love with you.

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[23 Jul 2007|08:41pm]
[ mood | determined ]

I am happy, but not completely. I don't want this to end. Please consider my words and understand this can work. I'm falling more than ever.


Under your spell again.
I can't say no to you.
Crave my heart and it's bleeding in your hand.
I can't say no to you.

Shouldn't have let you torture me so sweetly.
Now I can't let go of this dream.
I can't breathe but I feel...

Good enough,
I feel good enough for you.

Drink up sweet decadence.
I can't say no to you,
And I've completely lost myself, and I don't mind.
I can't say no to you.

Shouldn't let you conquer me completely.
Now I can't let go of this dream.
Can't believe that I feel...

Good enough,
I feel good enough.
It's been such a long time coming, but I feel good.

And I'm still waiting for the rain to fall.
Pour real life down on me.
'Cause I can't hold on to anything this good enough.
Am I good enough for you to love me too?

So take care what you ask of me,
'cause I can't say no.

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[11 Jul 2007|06:43pm]
[ mood | depressed ]

Why do I get mad? Is there a way to control it? I want to be viewed as an equal and not degraded. I am not going to compromise myself. I am not going to change for him. He should like me for who I am. I need to just be myself.

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[06 Jul 2007|01:31am]
[ mood | confused ]

Something is missing or at least not apparent. I think I know what needs to be fixed or changed, but I can't seem to figure out how to do it. I really need some guidance, but I can't do this on my own...it's gotta be a joint effort between the both of us. And I don't know how to make you see that it isn't always my fault. I'm waiting for you now, please follow through.

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[25 Jun 2007|11:23pm]
Obstacles are put in your way to see if what you want is really worth fighting for.

I think this is worth fighting for. For some reason, I think that this is worth it.
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